My Motherhood

As I write this post today

The tears of joy and some sadness fills my soul

I have been so blessed in my life.

As a young child losing my mother was one of the hardest

Challenges I ever faced. . . . tears filled my pillow at night

Crying for her and feeling such profound lose. . .

I still shed tears because I  miss her so much. .

 I never had the opportunity to share my life with her. .

My childhood was lonely without her.

Throughout my teenage years I was lost without her presence.

When I was a young woman I missed not having her with me

When I graduated, married, gave birth to my babies.

I missed shopping trips, girl talk, friendship, companionship

That only a Mother can give.

 This is the only picture of my Mom and Dad together.

She died when I was 7 years old. . .

Somehow things work out. . . and I have been blessed

To be a Mom

 And this is my Wild Bunch. . .

What a great experience it has been!

All I ever wanted was to be a Wife and a Mom

Even though I no long have my hubby in this life. .

I have my four children. . .

(and now their children)

Mathew, Emily, Blake and Mark. . .

You are my universe, you are the bright shining stars

that fills my life. . .  You are my best friends, and my angels.

Where you are is where I want to be.

I loved being home with you when you were young.

I never aspired to a career outside of my home.

I never wanted the acclaim of the world, , , , I just wanted

My children.

 Nothing in this world

Matters, only you!

You are my Crowning Jewels

And you are mine

Forever!