Changes Are Hard

Hello Dear Friends,

This will be a short post today

Just some thoughts going through my head.

Why is change so hard for me. . 

I know I am not the only one to feel this way.

I am at the door of a major life change.

I knew this day would come, but then again

Never realized how fast it would be here.

I am going to be retiring. . . 

I am 66 years old and I have had it. . 

I can't do it anymore.

I know I have shared with you my recent surgery.

Rotator Cuff tear. . .it has been a beast.

I will never be the same.

But aside form that. . . the simple fact is

I am Done!

All I ever wanted in life was to be a wife and mom

I had the wonderful opportunity of being both.

But my life as a wife was cut short with the death of my

Young 48 year husband.

I was not prepared for such a life altering event.

Emotionally, Spiritually, Physically, Temporally.

I have bounced from job to job. . .never getting

The job that would help my retirement.

Well, Retirement has come. . and I am not ready for it.

I know I have a lot of changes coming my way.

And one thing will probably be moving.

I love living in my little condo.

It is the first time I have felt "Home" since I left my home

I had with my husband and children.

Why, oh Why is it so hard to leave. . to change.

Where am I going I don't know.

I will hang on as long as I can, but the reality is I can't afford to live here.

Yes, there are worse things that could be happening to me.

Believe me I know that, I have been through them.

But I love HOME

There really is no place like HOME

Oh, I will be ok. . .I just have a heavy heart tonight.

Reality is setting in.

I am sure I will find another place to call home.

And I will be able to fuss and fiddle in that place

But for now my life's path is so uncertain.